A Million, Billion, Trillion Tiny Feelings Pt. 10
Notes from a father's first pregnancy
August 2, 2017
Emily’s protruding belly takes up most of the frame but in the corner are my eyes, wide and excited. Big Mike’s Little Guy arrives February 2018, read the caption below my Instagram photo.
The texts and calls, emails and comments began to pour in. This news makes so many people I love very happy. A new baby is one of life’s great blessings and the people in our lives wouldn’t soon let us forget it.
August 3, 2017
I left the record label I was last working for in mid-April and, while I have been getting by from writing, I am hardly making a living and absolutely not making enough money to support a child.
I wrestle daily with the fears of inadequacy, with the deep crisis that I may never again find work that I love. I question the decisions I’ve made.
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